xfrostdevil:Grace...
crystalwhisker:Yes?
xfrostdevil:I've been in hospital
crystalwhisker:Why??
xfrostdevil:And id prefer not to be on my computer right now
crystalwhisker:And why are you just now telling me?
xfrostdevil:Because im fucking shit scared of electrical appliances!
crystalwhisker:<< what.
xfrostdevil:Grace I wanted to tell you that I cant do this anymore I cant lead you on
xfrostdevil:I lied to you about a lot of things and i cant keep them hidden anymore... i think its just better if we stopped talking...
crystalwhisker:Allen, what the fuck?
crystalwhisker:What are you talking about?
crystalwhisker:You lied to me about what?
xfrostdevil:im a terrible person
crystalwhisker:No you aren't, Allen why are you dong this.
xfrostdevil:Grace, i am a terrible person.
crystalwhisker:What have you lied about?
xfrostdevil:I was going out with Avalon before i told you, I have been taking the same drugs i always have, im doing my final year of senior high and i have the certificates i told you about, just I got them in my spare time..
crystalwhisker:...How long before you told me.
xfrostdevil:I cant do it to you any longer Grace.... I hope you dont hate me... I want to be friends....
xfrostdevil:6 hours.
xfrostdevil:Because im never going to go anywhere in life
xfrostdevil:Im addicted to 3 different drugs i can think of right now
crystalwhisker:Allen...
xfrostdevil:I spend all my money on my habits.
xfrostdevil:I cant lie to you anymore Grace...
xfrostdevil:Im a terrible person
crystalwhisker:Allen, why would you lie about that?
crystalwhisker:What did you fucking want from me?
crystalwhisker:A lay?
xfrostdevil:Because im a terrible person.
xfrostdevil:I wanted someone who cared.
crystalwhisker:I STILL CARE
xfrostdevil:I wanted someone who wanted the me i could be
xfrostdevil:But i never well be.
crystalwhisker:Thanks to you, I fucking do.
crystalwhisker:Allen, do you have any idea what you;ve done to me
xfrostdevil:No Grace.... you cant be.
xfrostdevil:You have to stop
xfrostdevil:And i have to stop
crystalwhisker:fuck off Allen don't fucking tell me what to do
xfrostdevil:I cant lie to you.
crystalwhisker:There's just you fucking dying from meth and heroin
crystalwhisker:probably coke too.
xfrostdevil:Im sorry Grace..... I did everything i could... I tried to kick the drugs...
xfrostdevil:I tried to be the man i could be..
crystalwhisker:You don't get it.
crystalwhisker:I don't care that you;re a high schooler.
crystalwhisker:I dont care about avalon
crystalwhisker:all i care about is the drugs.
crystalwhisker:fucking get off of them
crystalwhisker:Don't you fucking lie, you tell the fucking truth.
xfrostdevil:I only lied about my image.
crystalwhisker:fantastic.
xfrostdevil:As i see it, for the cunt ive been to you
xfrostdevil:I deserve everything i get
xfrostdevil:Even if it is my own death
crystalwhisker:please don't do them anymore
xfrostdevil:Grace, ive tried i have to break it off
crystalwhisker:get help
xfrostdevil:I cant do this
xfrostdevil:Help me get help Grace...
xfrostdevil:You cant ever be with me.... But at least be my only friend...
xfrostdevil:Garry found out about my drug use.... and he wont talk to me...
xfrostdevil:Avalon is in love with me, but shes conflicted because of my drug use...
xfrostdevil:Im alone...
crystalwhisker:No, you aren't.
crystalwhisker:You have me still, even though I'm absolutely livid with you.
xfrostdevil:Ill get help Grace....
crystalwhisker:How can I possibly help you.
xfrostdevil:By being my friend.
crystalwhisker:You don't fucking need me, apparenty.
xfrostdevil:I know you hate me....
crystalwhisker:You've not talked to me in two days.
crystalwhisker:No I don't hate you.
xfrostdevil:I overdosed.
crystalwhisker:I am absulutely livid in ager and im heartbroken
crystalwhisker:WHAT
crystalwhisker:You had better be fucking kidding
xfrostdevil:It wasnt my fault!
xfrostdevil:Someone gave me a shoddy batch and i fucking overdosed off one.
crystalwhisker:Right NOW?
xfrostdevil:2 days ago.
xfrostdevil:Shortly after i talked to you.
crystalwhisker:...
crystalwhisker:Of WHAt
crystalwhisker:You odd on what.
xfrostdevil:I cant tell you.
crystalwhisker:Yes you can.
xfrostdevil:Grace, im alive arent i? i saw what was wrong and ran the 2 blocks to the hospital
crystalwhisker:Allen, tell me what it was.
crystalwhisker:Do you love Avalon?
xfrostdevil:Meth.
crystalwhisker:FUCK ALLEN
crystalwhisker:JESUS FUCKING CHRIST
crystalwhisker:I want to throw this computer into your face what the fuck were you thinking.
crystalwhisker:Allen, I swear to god, you need to stop being a goddamn teenager and kick this shit.
crystalwhisker:I'm not fucking kidding.
crystalwhisker:You lost your best goddamn friend over this, you need to get some help. i wat you to get checked in.
crystalwhisker:*want
xfrostdevil:Ill get myself checked in Grace..
xfrostdevil:But first.
crystalwhisker:I don't believe that for a second.
xfrostdevil:I want to try for myself
xfrostdevil:And prove
xfrostdevil:To myself that i can do this.
xfrostdevil:I've gone a day and a half.
crystalwhisker:Do you have any on you?
crystalwhisker:in your room?
xfrostdevil:I flushed it.
crystalwhisker:and your pipe?
crystalwhisker:needles?
xfrostdevil:I gave that to an old friend to dispose of
crystalwhisker:Did you really even send the shirt, or did your conscience get in your way?
xfrostdevil:I did send it
xfrostdevil:But i need to send it again
xfrostdevil:Its yours.
crystalwhisker:I don't want it.
crystalwhisker:Also.
crystalwhisker:I noticed you haven't worn your bracelet recently
crystalwhisker:Did you do something sweet and try to send it too?
xfrostdevil:Yes.
crystalwhisker:Kay, just making sure.
crystalwhisker:If you still want to send them, I'll use them.
xfrostdevil:Grace, i want you to have them.
crystalwhisker:Saying I didn't want them was a little harsh, I still do.
xfrostdevil:But I want you to know, after what i did i cant trust myself anymore
crystalwhisker:Why do you want me to have them..
xfrostdevil:Grace the reason i want you to have them
xfrostdevil:Is that i want you to remember that there are people who love you in this world
xfrostdevil:no matter how drug fucked they are
crystalwhisker:You don't love me enough to keep your promises.
crystalwhisker:I want you to send those too, if you have them.
crystalwhisker:And if you weren't already.
xfrostdevil:what promises?
crystalwhisker:...The ones you wrote for me.
crystalwhisker:Along with my poetry.
xfrostdevil:Let me find them
xfrostdevil:Ill send them asap Grace... But yes i do love Avalon too.
crystalwhisker:How long.
xfrostdevil:But the reason i am doing this to you, is because i know that im going to have to do it to Avalon too.
crystalwhisker:Why.
xfrostdevil:I dont deserve anyone.
xfrostdevil:I dont deserve my own life, when im straight and narrow, maybe i can think about it.
xfrostdevil:But Grace, please, i want you to find a kind, giving loving man in your own country
xfrostdevil:Someone who loves you for you, someone to have a family with, someone who will pick you up when your down.
crystalwhisker:Yeah, Allen.
crystalwhisker:That used to be you and Kagan.
crystalwhisker:Not anyfucking more.
xfrostdevil:Grace, well i cant do this to you anymore.
crystalwhisker:Do what to me?
xfrostdevil:Lie, be a cunt.
crystalwhisker:You already fucking destroyed me.
crystalwhisker:You can't hurt me anymore.