I Am Yawgy:I can't help but wonder why you didn't delete those messages in your inbox on the env2.

I Am Yawgy:You can always block me.

crystalwhisker:But I don't block people anymore.

I Am Yawgy:That's nice of you.

I Am Yawgy:If you're just going to make jabs, then I won't talk to you. I'm not here for hostile reasons.

crystalwhisker:What was in teh inbox?

crystalwhisker:*the

crystalwhisker:Well I had to delete some of tehm individually and my mom took it to you before I was done.

I Am Yawgy:I was just curious.

crystalwhisker:Ah.

crystalwhisker:And I mean that in teh most sincere way.

crystalwhisker:Believe me, I am.

crystalwhisker:I don't hate you.

I Am Yawgy:You sure seem like it.

crystalwhisker:I wasn't even myself.

crystalwhisker:*better

crystalwhisker:*they

crystalwhisker:*the

crystalwhisker:I hate this keyboard.

I Am Yawgy:Do you want me to say I feel the same?

crystalwhisker:No, I expect you to hate me.

I Am Yawgy:There's a good 25 of them.

I Am Yawgy:One specifically stood out, it was someone who said that the worst thing you could do is get back with me, and you were misrable for 2 whole years.

crystalwhisker:Oh.

I Am Yawgy:No it wasn't, I checked.

crystalwhisker:What do you mean it wasn't from my mom?

I Am Yawgy:It wasn't from your mom, I checked.

crystalwhisker:Well.

I Am Yawgy:I cross referenced all the deleted numbers to numbers in my phone.

crystalwhisker:I don't have your charger/

I Am Yawgy:Unless I punched it in wrong, then I'm sure it's not your mom's. Does it matter?

crystalwhisker:Nah.

crystalwhisker:I know it was my mom.

I Am Yawgy:Would you like me to be honest with you?

I Am Yawgy:Sure isn't good enough, yes or no.

I Am Yawgy:I don't hate to, but I want to hate you. I look at this room, at this apartment, and this city and all I remember is you. You were everything TN was to me. More importantly, I look at what you took when you left. You took the pink skirt, the black skirt, the Great Gatsby, my black/white military coat, the Hitchhiker's Guide, death note, and the Changeling Book.

crystalwhisker:I thought about giving it back.

crystalwhisker:But since you hate Justin and I now, I didn't want to put my mom in that position.

crystalwhisker:You DON'T hate me?

I Am Yawgy:I want to, but I can't make myself do it.

crystalwhisker:For teh record, I'm still trying to find the pieces of your computer.

I Am Yawgy:Your mom gave me a lot of them.

I Am Yawgy:Yeah, I have a whole box of them.

crystalwhisker:Okay, good. That's all of them. They're just not put together.

crystalwhisker:Probably nothing, in all honesty.

crystalwhisker:At least now maybe you can make someone happy.

crystalwhisker:What happened needed to happen, and you know it and I know it.

I Am Yawgy:It needed to happen, but I'm conflicted on where we are now. And I can't help but to think of where we were after our first break up.

crystalwhisker:Also, Justin went to school with her/

I Am Yawgy:I know he did.

crystalwhisker:but I'm happy to say that I have no desire to cheat on Justin.

crystalwhisker:I have to tell you something.

crystalwhisker:Do you remember my little Texas rape story where the guy forced me on him, etc etc?

I Am Yawgy:It was madeup, I only assume.

crystalwhisker:It was very real.

crystalwhisker:I never found someone I thought didn't deserve to be hurt.

crystalwhisker:I cheated on you because I was angry, adn I thought you deserved it/.

crystalwhisker:No matter what I told you in our relationship, I never had that respect for you.

crystalwhisker:Well I just wanted to be sure.

I Am Yawgy:You know, if I didn't love you, I'd have left you after hearing that.

crystalwhisker:Is it a good feeling?

crystalwhisker:What can I say to make it better?

crystalwhisker:I can't come over and hang out with you and your girlfriend.

I Am Yawgy:Grace, I don't ever want to see you again.

I Am Yawgy:Believe me, if I never see you again it'll be too soon.

crystalwhisker:I know the feeling;

I Am Yawgy:Gunbarrel?

crystalwhisker:Hixson.

crystalwhisker:Yeah.

crystalwhisker:UI have to sometimes.

I Am Yawgy:Don't worry about it.

crystalwhisker:I don't if I don't have to, believe me.

crystalwhisker:Not that it's anywhere near you anymore/.

I Am Yawgy:You know, you always had me wrong there. I didn't want you to be someone else. Sure I liked long hair, but that was hardly a request for a different person.

crystalwhisker:Yes. And then I burned it.

crystalwhisker:Your art was in the pile.

crystalwhisker:Gloomy Bear is gone.

crystalwhisker:Except Changeling.

crystalwhisker:Justin doesn't want me to be talking to you.

crystalwhisker:I promised him I wouldn't.

crystalwhisker:I CAN.

crystalwhisker:I choose not to talk to you.

I Am Yawgy:Well, going differently at least.

crystalwhisker:How did you WANT it to go?

I Am Yawgy:If I knew how I wanted it to go, I'd have directed the convo that way.

crystalwhisker:I see.

crystalwhisker:You kept my things?

I Am Yawgy:I like to remember what I was.

I Am Yawgy:I wasn't a monster, and if I was a monster doesn't make itself.

I Am Yawgy:I was angry.

I Am Yawgy:And I was vindictive.

I Am Yawgy:Don't call the kettle black, pot.

crystalwhisker:I love Justin.

crystalwhisker:I'm happy now.

crystalwhisker:I don't know what to tell you.

crystalwhisker:You should be happy.

I Am Yawgy:No, we weren't. We just... fucked up.

I Am Yawgy:You didn't answer my question. The skirts, the books, and the coat are burnt then?

crystalwhisker:I have everything.

crystalwhisker:I can't talk to you anymore.

crystalwhisker:I didn't call the police.

crystalwhisker:I have to get ready for work, and I don't want you and Justin to get into a fight.

I Am Yawgy:I'm not going to fight with him, I don't have an issue with him.

I Am Yawgy:That's up to you.

I Am Yawgy:I wasn't going to make a habit of talking to you.

crystalwhisker:Be happy.