March 2011
1 post
Spongebob.
Ash the Foxie: Goin' to the mooon!
Ash the Foxie: Moon ride!
crystalwhisker: MOON RIDE
Ash the Foxie: Moon ride!
crystalwhisker: lol
February 2011
5 posts
I think it's funny.
That you think you can take pretty pictures. Anyone can be a photographer, but seriously - good luck with those cockeyes of yours.
I’m surprised you can see two feet in front of you.
I’ve seen your work. Apparently you didn’t, but hey. No surprises here, Chicken Little.
January 2011
7 posts
I think it's really funny.
People are still stalking my Tumblr. You people really need to get a life and stop being manipulated by people who don’t care about you.
I keep hearing horror stories about your rebound’s cock-eyes. It’s actually quite hilarious. I guess enjoy that pussy while it’s there, even if it can’t see straight. :D
December 2010
3 posts
Rawr.
If only you’d start breathing, I’d court you exclusively.
With my shovel, I’m pounding earth ‘til suddenly I see… You awake from the dirt and the grime, stretch your fractured, pretzel spine, out to take your revenge for the crime, filled with fire and finally mine.
Diaperfags are funny things.
I gotta say, it was interesting dating one. I don’t think I’ll ever have the experience again(I hope), but it was… fun while it lasted?
Who would have thought that wearing diapers was a fetish. About two years ago it would never have crossed my mind. :P
And Babyfurs? Oh. Dear god no. I mean, do what you want, but no.
November 2010
2 posts
The no good bad day.
(23: 47:33) Keiya Caliva: Hey...
(23: 47:39) Wraith Dream: Hii
(23: 47:47) Keiya Caliva: What's up?
(23: 48:02) Wraith Dream: Not tons, you?
(23: 48:23) Keiya Caliva: Having an indescribably bad day.
(23: 48:36) Wraith Dream: I've been having pretty crappy days, too. ><
(23: 48:39) Wraith Dream: What happened?
(23: 49:26) Keiya Caliva: Well lets see... We'll start from the beginning.
(23: 49:56) Keiya Caliva: Our manager got fired because we found out she stole money all the time even though nobody expected it from her and she may be going to jail.
(23: 50:25) Keiya Caliva: The new manager is a two faced bitch that says one thing, then tells you another thing the next day and denies she ever said the first.
(23: 50:28) Keiya Caliva: FOR INSTANCE.
(23: 50:44) Wraith Dream: Oh jeeze. >.>
(23: 50:47) Keiya Caliva: I got sick at work the other day because i ate mongolian and it gave me food poisoning.
(23: 51:24) Keiya Caliva: So I called her, but since I work third and she's a lazy BITCH she doesn't answer her phone. I call her about three times and then I call my assistant manager, Shane.
(23: 51:39) Keiya Caliva: He says he'll come in for me, so cool beans and I go home and such.
(23: 51:54) Keiya Caliva: I go home and I'm out for two days, and then I have two off supposedly.
(23: 52:33) Keiya Caliva: Justin(my mate) came in for me one of the two days and the manager says I need to come in on one of the thirds he had to work since I was scheduled off. So I get used to the idea.
(23: 52:58) Keiya Caliva: My assistant manager tells me I need to come in and that kelly(manager) told him so.
(23: 53:44) Keiya Caliva: Justin goes in for a third that night(I was going in for his shift tonight, supposedly) and comes back in the morning saying that he mentioned me coming in to Kelly and she denies ever having sad that I needed to.
(23: 54:08) Keiya Caliva: So I couldn't come in tonight. And the kicker is this:
(23: 54:28) Keiya Caliva: nobody told me I had to have a doctor's note, and in the whole time I've been there, I never needed one.
(23: 54:43) Keiya Caliva: Kelly tried to say I needed a note saying I was sick two days after I was sick.
(23: 55:16) Keiya Caliva: Justin was basically like that's fucking retarded how can you expect someone to do that, and she was like okay, a note saying she's WELL.
(23: 55:45) Keiya Caliva: So I have to spend money to go to the doctor when I'm NOT SICK to say that I'm WELL because they don't just hand out doctor's notes.
(23: 55:56) Keiya Caliva: ON TOP OF ALL THAT
(23: 56:20) Wraith Dream: what the
(23: 56:27) Keiya Caliva: My mate's great grandmother just died and the fucking funeral is TODAY and he has to work since bitch won't let me come in.
(23: 57:19) Keiya Caliva: He was supposed to go with his mom to get something to wear to it since we think he'll have to be a pallbearer(carry the coffin) and his phone died because our idiot roommate took the charger with him to a friends house(so we thought).
(23: 57:53) Keiya Caliva: Turns out he didn't, but I texted Justin's mom from my phone and told her that she could call or text me and we took a nap. She never called so we never got up.
(23: 58:02) Keiya Caliva: Turns out I entered the wrong number.
(23: 58:20) Keiya Caliva: So he called her and we have to go to old navy at ten in the morning tomorrow.,
(23: 59:01) Keiya Caliva: Not to mention that he said it was my fault and acted like a total dick to me. Then he sat down on my futon(the only bed I own) and it broke.
(23: 59:49) Keiya Caliva: He threw things I think and our roommate came out and I have to get the fucking note tomorrow and my black dress from my house and just... Fuck everything right now.
September 2010
3 posts
You know what, fuck everything. Seriously.
My car exploded, my mother calls me after I leave her a very upset message only asking her to call me back and fucking screams at me how I fucked up everything and how I have to live with my mistakes and how I’m a failure. I then post a status on facebook calling her a bitch(which she fucking is, I don’t care what the hell you say) and all the people I thought would be on my side stick...
Scary things. →
Why.... →
August 2010
2 posts
So today is moving day.
I get to move a bunch of bullshit that I have no room for where I’m going. Sounds fun, huh?
Lol.
I Am Yawgy: I can't help but wonder why you didn't delete those messages in your inbox on the env2.
crystalwhisker: Why the hell are you talking to me?
I Am Yawgy: You can always block me.
crystalwhisker: I could.
crystalwhisker: But I don't block people anymore.
crystalwhisker: I have no reason to.
I Am Yawgy: That's nice of you.
crystalwhisker: Since I can talk to who i want.
I Am Yawgy: If you're just going to make jabs, then I won't talk to you. I'm not here for hostile reasons.
crystalwhisker: If they were locked, I didn't delete them I guess.
crystalwhisker: What was in teh inbox?
I Am Yawgy: There were unlocked ones.
crystalwhisker: *the
I Am Yawgy: Quite a few, actually.
crystalwhisker: Well I had to delete some of tehm individually and my mom took it to you before I was done.
crystalwhisker: *them
I Am Yawgy: I was just curious.
I Am Yawgy: That's all.
crystalwhisker: Ah.
crystalwhisker: Well I hope you're happy with your new girlfriend.
crystalwhisker: And I mean that in teh most sincere way.
I Am Yawgy: I hope you're happy with Justin.
crystalwhisker: Believe me, I am.
crystalwhisker: Sorry things didn't work. Hopefully you found someone things WILL work with. And for the record, your art is still on my page.
crystalwhisker: I don't hate you.
crystalwhisker: I just can't deal with you being in my life anymore.
I Am Yawgy: You sure seem like it.
crystalwhisker: You put so much stress on me.
crystalwhisker: I wasn't even myself.
crystalwhisker: I feel beter now, even if things didn't work out.
crystalwhisker: *better
crystalwhisker: Fro what it's worth, I'm sorry things turned out teh way tehy did but it had to happen.
crystalwhisker: *they
crystalwhisker: FUCK
crystalwhisker: *the
I Am Yawgy: What do you want me to say?
crystalwhisker: I hate this keyboard.
crystalwhisker: Nothing.
I Am Yawgy: Do you want me to say I feel the same?
crystalwhisker: I just wanted you to know.
crystalwhisker: No, I expect you to hate me.
crystalwhisker: What messages were left in the inbox, just out of curiosity?
I Am Yawgy: There's a good 25 of them.
crystalwhisker: That doesn't tell me what they are. Do they look important?
I Am Yawgy: One specifically stood out, it was someone who said that the worst thing you could do is get back with me, and you were misrable for 2 whole years.
crystalwhisker: Is it something i should have written down or something?
crystalwhisker: Oh.
crystalwhisker: That one was from my mom.
I Am Yawgy: No it wasn't, I checked.
crystalwhisker: I locked it so i wouldn't make a stupid mistake.
crystalwhisker: What do you mean it wasn't from my mom?
crystalwhisker: I think I know my own mother's number.
I Am Yawgy: It wasn't from your mom, I checked.
crystalwhisker: Read me the number.
crystalwhisker: Well.
crystalwhisker: Type it.
I Am Yawgy: I cross referenced all the deleted numbers to numbers in my phone.
I Am Yawgy: You didn't give me the charger back, and the phone is now dead.
crystalwhisker: I don't have your charger/
crystalwhisker: Your charger didn't work.
I Am Yawgy: Unless I punched it in wrong, then I'm sure it's not your mom's. Does it matter?
crystalwhisker: It's in your room somewhere. i didn't take it with me.
crystalwhisker: Nah.
crystalwhisker: I figured you deserve to know who was talking shit about you.
crystalwhisker: I know it was my mom.
crystalwhisker: I was mad when she first sent it.
I Am Yawgy: Would you like me to be honest with you?
crystalwhisker: Sure.
I Am Yawgy: Sure isn't good enough, yes or no.
crystalwhisker: yes.
I Am Yawgy: I don't hate to, but I want to hate you. I look at this room, at this apartment, and this city and all I remember is you. You were everything TN was to me. More importantly, I look at what you took when you left. You took the pink skirt, the black skirt, the Great Gatsby, my black/white military coat, the Hitchhiker's Guide, death note, and the Changeling Book.
I Am Yawgy: You took stuff specifically to hurt me. That's one reason.
crystalwhisker: I thought about giving it back.
I Am Yawgy: *I don't hate you,
crystalwhisker: But since you hate Justin and I now, I didn't want to put my mom in that position.
crystalwhisker: Wait.
crystalwhisker: You DON'T hate me?
I Am Yawgy: No.
I Am Yawgy: I want to, but I can't make myself do it.
crystalwhisker: Yeah, well. I can't hate you either. I say all teh time that if i could hate anyone, it would be you. But I can't. It's not in my emotional capacity.
crystalwhisker: For teh record, I'm still trying to find the pieces of your computer.
crystalwhisker: *the
I Am Yawgy: Your mom gave me a lot of them.
crystalwhisker: She found them? The bag of them?
I Am Yawgy: Yeah, I have a whole box of them.
I Am Yawgy: Look, you were the absolute love of my life. I was wrong in the head, and still am, but I'm at least trying to fix it now. I don't think we weren't compatable -- I just think we had temper problems and trust issues.
crystalwhisker: Okay, good. That's all of them. They're just not put together.
I Am Yawgy: I've spent numerous nights awake wondering what would have been different if I had just let everything drop after the infamous "Brood Night."
crystalwhisker: Probably nothing, in all honesty.
crystalwhisker: If I did nothing, you never would have changed.
crystalwhisker: At least now maybe you can make someone happy.
crystalwhisker: You needed a kick in the head, and even if it killed me for a while, I don't regret it.
crystalwhisker: What happened needed to happen, and you know it and I know it.
I Am Yawgy: She's very happy, it was her 21st last Wednesday. She told me she loves me then.
I Am Yawgy: It needed to happen, but I'm conflicted on where we are now. And I can't help but to think of where we were after our first break up.
crystalwhisker: Where were we?
crystalwhisker: Also, Justin went to school with her/
I Am Yawgy: Everything was good, and I was making excellent progress, until John.
I Am Yawgy: I know he did.
crystalwhisker: I know I made mistakes too.
crystalwhisker: but I'm happy to say that I have no desire to cheat on Justin.
I Am Yawgy: I don't claim 100% of the blame, but I'm willing to claim 50%.
crystalwhisker: I have to tell you something.
crystalwhisker: I didn't tell you in the relationship, and it was unfair of me to hide it from you.
crystalwhisker: Do you remember my little Texas rape story where the guy forced me on him, etc etc?
I Am Yawgy: Yeah.
I Am Yawgy: It was madeup, I only assume.
crystalwhisker: No.
crystalwhisker: It was very real.
crystalwhisker: Ever since then, I've felt like all men deserve to be cheated on.
crystalwhisker: I never found someone I thought didn't deserve to be hurt.
I Am Yawgy: You did tell me that.
crystalwhisker: I cheated on you because I was angry, adn I thought you deserved it/.
I Am Yawgy: You told me that too.
crystalwhisker: No matter what I told you in our relationship, I never had that respect for you.
crystalwhisker: oh.
crystalwhisker: Well I just wanted to be sure.
crystalwhisker: I feel like you at least deserve to know why.
I Am Yawgy: You know, if I didn't love you, I'd have left you after hearing that.
I Am Yawgy: Heh, this isn't what I expected closure to feel like.
crystalwhisker: Is it a good feeling?
I Am Yawgy: No.
crystalwhisker: What can I say to make it better?
I Am Yawgy: Nothing.
crystalwhisker: I can't come over and hang out with you and your girlfriend.
crystalwhisker: I can't be part of your life.
I Am Yawgy: Grace, I don't ever want to see you again.
crystalwhisker: For once in my life, I'm happy to be who I am and not what someone else wants me to be.
I Am Yawgy: Believe me, if I never see you again it'll be too soon.
crystalwhisker: Haha.
crystalwhisker: I know the feeling;
crystalwhisker: Every time i go to Walmart, I'm scared I'll see you.
I Am Yawgy: Gunbarrel?
crystalwhisker: No.
crystalwhisker: Hixson.
I Am Yawgy: Mine?
crystalwhisker: Yeah.
I Am Yawgy: lol, I wouldn't go there.
crystalwhisker: UI have to sometimes.
crystalwhisker: Why wouldn't I?
I Am Yawgy: Don't worry about it.
I Am Yawgy: I meant it as in, "don't go there if you don't want to see me."
crystalwhisker: I don't if I don't have to, believe me.
crystalwhisker: Don't visit Justin's gas station.
crystalwhisker: Not that it's anywhere near you anymore/.
I Am Yawgy: Why? You're there a lot, I assume.
I Am Yawgy: You know, you always had me wrong there. I didn't want you to be someone else. Sure I liked long hair, but that was hardly a request for a different person.
I Am Yawgy: Did you read that note I gave to you in that box?
crystalwhisker: Yes. And then I burned it.
I Am Yawgy: Heh. Now that hurts.
crystalwhisker: Your art was in the pile.
crystalwhisker: I burned everything.
crystalwhisker: Gloomy Bear is gone.
crystalwhisker: Everything is gone.
crystalwhisker: Except Changeling.
I Am Yawgy: And why didn't that get burnt?
crystalwhisker: Justin doesn't want me to be talking to you.
crystalwhisker: I shouldn't be.
crystalwhisker: I promised him I wouldn't.
I Am Yawgy: Heh, I thought you could talk to who you wanted to?
crystalwhisker: I CAN.
I Am Yawgy: I won't tell him. *shrugs*
crystalwhisker: I choose not to talk to you.
I Am Yawgy: I really don't know what to say. I always imagined this different.
I Am Yawgy: Well, going differently at least.
crystalwhisker: I don't know what you want me to say.
crystalwhisker: How did you WANT it to go?
crystalwhisker: Did you want me to tell you I love you still and I didn't destroy everything?
I Am Yawgy: If I knew how I wanted it to go, I'd have directed the convo that way.
I Am Yawgy: No.
crystalwhisker: I see.
I Am Yawgy: I won't throw away what I have now.
crystalwhisker: You kept my things?
crystalwhisker: Why?
I Am Yawgy: I like to remember what I was.
crystalwhisker: A monster?
I Am Yawgy: I wasn't a monster, and if I was a monster doesn't make itself.
crystalwhisker: True.
I Am Yawgy: I was angry.
I Am Yawgy: I was petty.
I Am Yawgy: And I was vindictive.
crystalwhisker: You were all of those things and worse/
I Am Yawgy: Don't call the kettle black, pot.
crystalwhisker: I'm glad your girlfriend loves you.
crystalwhisker: I love Justin.
crystalwhisker: More than I thought I could love anyone.
crystalwhisker: I'm happy now.
crystalwhisker: Go be happy too./
crystalwhisker: I don't know what to tell you.
I Am Yawgy: Is it weird that I'm very happy?
crystalwhisker: You should be happy.
crystalwhisker: We were bad for each other.
I Am Yawgy: No, we weren't. We just... fucked up.
crystalwhisker: I suppose.
I Am Yawgy: You didn't answer my question. The skirts, the books, and the coat are burnt then?
crystalwhisker: No.
crystalwhisker: I have everything.
crystalwhisker: But i need to go.
crystalwhisker: I can't talk to you anymore.
crystalwhisker: I said i would get a restraining order if you talked to me.
crystalwhisker: I didn't call the police.
I Am Yawgy: I don't believe that for a second.
crystalwhisker: I have to get ready for work, and I don't want you and Justin to get into a fight.
crystalwhisker: I don't care what you believe.
I Am Yawgy: I'm not going to fight with him, I don't have an issue with him.
crystalwhisker: I'm going to block you.
I Am Yawgy: That's up to you.
crystalwhisker: You can text my mother if you have something to say.
I Am Yawgy: I wasn't going to make a habit of talking to you.
crystalwhisker: Goodbye, Walt.
crystalwhisker: Be happy.
June 2010
0 posts
To no regrets. To never changing your mind about your decisions. To not getting upset over other people’s attempts to make you angry. To living a good life, regardless of the cost.
Everyone I’ve ever hurt, I’m better for the mistakes I’ve made. The way I see it, they were less mistakes than they were… eliminations. I hope you’re happy with what you’ve...
May 2010
2 posts
Robbed!
crystalwhisker: So I got robbed last night. My car was opened and cleaned out.
skyu1999u9: *hugs* oh no, I'm sorry :{
crystalwhisker: Yeahhhhh. It was pretty bogus.
crystalwhisker: Hang on, it gets better.
crystalwhisker: The lock on my driver's door doesn't lock sometimes because the handle is missing.
crystalwhisker: so that's how they got in.
crystalwhisker: they took all my cds, my check stubs for about two years, my wallet, and my half an ounce of weed.
crystalwhisker: the weed I'm LIVID about.
crystalwhisker: my friend gave me money so we could split a half cause we both usually get about a quarter.
crystalwhisker: so i get in my car(after getting high with my friends Tara and Lacey at lunch) after wor gets out and I don't even fucking notice.
crystalwhisker: I get home and I reach for the half to bring in to show Walt and nothing is in my cd case.
crystalwhisker: There were about six cds in there, a cd holder that sat on my visor that had about 15 cds that I can't just buy as they were gifts and mixed cds.
crystalwhisker: My wallet had my driver's license, bank card, credit card, and some other coupons and like my library card and shit.
crystalwhisker: They stole all that.
crystalwhisker: We looked online before calling Wilkins(my work) and the police, and noticed that the morons who stole my shit had used my card already at red boxes and a GAS STATION(all of which have cameras everywhere).
crystalwhisker: They've tried to take over 500$ from me in the past day. Bank of America is aware of what's going on and they've let the charges post, but have either refused them or have credited me back the money spent.
crystalwhisker: So I talked to the cops and I have the FRAUD DIVISION working on my case... Which basically means that they WILL catch thi guy/girl.
crystalwhisker: That's it. lol
skyu1999u9: Damn, that fucking sucks hardcore, but at least the police are on them, and they're stupid enough to use the card at places with cameras
March 2010
1 post
You know what.
I’m tired of this shit.
I’m tired of you fucking me over again and again. Get your shit together or I’m fucking gone from your life and you can either die, or you can continue being a worthless fucking meth/heroin/speedhead loser.
Get fucked if you can’t even apologize for your blatant mistakes, you cocksucker.
February 2010
9 posts
I don't know how to feel anymore. I feel like a...
xfrostdevil: Grace...
crystalwhisker: Yes?
xfrostdevil: I've been in hospital
crystalwhisker: Why??
xfrostdevil: And id prefer not to be on my computer right now
crystalwhisker: And why are you just now telling me?
xfrostdevil: Because im fucking shit scared of electrical appliances!
crystalwhisker:
xfrostdevil: Grace I wanted to tell you that I cant do this anymore I cant lead you on
xfrostdevil: I lied to you about a lot of things and i cant keep them hidden anymore... i think its just better if we stopped talking...
crystalwhisker: Allen, what the fuck?
crystalwhisker: What are you talking about?
crystalwhisker: You lied to me about what?
xfrostdevil: im a terrible person
crystalwhisker: No you aren't, Allen why are you dong this.
xfrostdevil: Grace, i am a terrible person.
crystalwhisker: What have you lied about?
xfrostdevil: I was going out with Avalon before i told you, I have been taking the same drugs i always have, im doing my final year of senior high and i have the certificates i told you about, just I got them in my spare time..
crystalwhisker: ...How long before you told me.
xfrostdevil: I cant do it to you any longer Grace.... I hope you dont hate me... I want to be friends....
xfrostdevil: 6 hours.
xfrostdevil: Because im never going to go anywhere in life
xfrostdevil: Im addicted to 3 different drugs i can think of right now
crystalwhisker: Allen...
xfrostdevil: I spend all my money on my habits.
xfrostdevil: I cant lie to you anymore Grace...
xfrostdevil: Im a terrible person
crystalwhisker: Allen, why would you lie about that?
crystalwhisker: What did you fucking want from me?
crystalwhisker: A lay?
xfrostdevil: Because im a terrible person.
xfrostdevil: I wanted someone who cared.
crystalwhisker: I STILL CARE
xfrostdevil: I wanted someone who wanted the me i could be
xfrostdevil: But i never well be.
crystalwhisker: Thanks to you, I fucking do.
crystalwhisker: Allen, do you have any idea what you;ve done to me
xfrostdevil: No Grace.... you cant be.
xfrostdevil: You have to stop
xfrostdevil: And i have to stop
crystalwhisker: fuck off Allen don't fucking tell me what to do
xfrostdevil: I cant lie to you.
crystalwhisker: There's just you fucking dying from meth and heroin
crystalwhisker: probably coke too.
xfrostdevil: Im sorry Grace..... I did everything i could... I tried to kick the drugs...
xfrostdevil: I tried to be the man i could be..
crystalwhisker: You don't get it.
crystalwhisker: I don't care that you;re a high schooler.
crystalwhisker: I dont care about avalon
crystalwhisker: all i care about is the drugs.
crystalwhisker: fucking get off of them
crystalwhisker: Don't you fucking lie, you tell the fucking truth.
xfrostdevil: I only lied about my image.
crystalwhisker: fantastic.
xfrostdevil: As i see it, for the cunt ive been to you
xfrostdevil: I deserve everything i get
xfrostdevil: Even if it is my own death
crystalwhisker: please don't do them anymore
xfrostdevil: Grace, ive tried i have to break it off
crystalwhisker: get help
xfrostdevil: I cant do this
xfrostdevil: Help me get help Grace...
xfrostdevil: You cant ever be with me.... But at least be my only friend...
xfrostdevil: Garry found out about my drug use.... and he wont talk to me...
xfrostdevil: Avalon is in love with me, but shes conflicted because of my drug use...
xfrostdevil: Im alone...
crystalwhisker: No, you aren't.
crystalwhisker: You have me still, even though I'm absolutely livid with you.
xfrostdevil: Ill get help Grace....
crystalwhisker: How can I possibly help you.
xfrostdevil: By being my friend.
crystalwhisker: You don't fucking need me, apparenty.
xfrostdevil: I know you hate me....
crystalwhisker: You've not talked to me in two days.
crystalwhisker: No I don't hate you.
xfrostdevil: I overdosed.
crystalwhisker: I am absulutely livid in ager and im heartbroken
crystalwhisker: WHAT
crystalwhisker: You had better be fucking kidding
xfrostdevil: It wasnt my fault!
xfrostdevil: Someone gave me a shoddy batch and i fucking overdosed off one.
crystalwhisker: Right NOW?
xfrostdevil: 2 days ago.
xfrostdevil: Shortly after i talked to you.
crystalwhisker: ...
crystalwhisker: Of WHAt
crystalwhisker: You odd on what.
xfrostdevil: I cant tell you.
crystalwhisker: Yes you can.
xfrostdevil: Grace, im alive arent i? i saw what was wrong and ran the 2 blocks to the hospital
crystalwhisker: Allen, tell me what it was.
crystalwhisker: Do you love Avalon?
xfrostdevil: Meth.
crystalwhisker: FUCK ALLEN
crystalwhisker: JESUS FUCKING CHRIST
crystalwhisker: I want to throw this computer into your face what the fuck were you thinking.
crystalwhisker: Allen, I swear to god, you need to stop being a goddamn teenager and kick this shit.
crystalwhisker: I'm not fucking kidding.
crystalwhisker: You lost your best goddamn friend over this, you need to get some help. i wat you to get checked in.
crystalwhisker: *want
xfrostdevil: Ill get myself checked in Grace..
xfrostdevil: But first.
crystalwhisker: I don't believe that for a second.
xfrostdevil: I want to try for myself
xfrostdevil: And prove
xfrostdevil: To myself that i can do this.
xfrostdevil: I've gone a day and a half.
crystalwhisker: Do you have any on you?
crystalwhisker: in your room?
xfrostdevil: I flushed it.
crystalwhisker: and your pipe?
crystalwhisker: needles?
xfrostdevil: I gave that to an old friend to dispose of
crystalwhisker: Did you really even send the shirt, or did your conscience get in your way?
xfrostdevil: I did send it
xfrostdevil: But i need to send it again
xfrostdevil: Its yours.
crystalwhisker: I don't want it.
crystalwhisker: Also.
crystalwhisker: I noticed you haven't worn your bracelet recently
crystalwhisker: Did you do something sweet and try to send it too?
xfrostdevil: Yes.
crystalwhisker: Kay, just making sure.
crystalwhisker: If you still want to send them, I'll use them.
xfrostdevil: Grace, i want you to have them.
crystalwhisker: Saying I didn't want them was a little harsh, I still do.
xfrostdevil: But I want you to know, after what i did i cant trust myself anymore
crystalwhisker: Why do you want me to have them..
xfrostdevil: Grace the reason i want you to have them
xfrostdevil: Is that i want you to remember that there are people who love you in this world
xfrostdevil: no matter how drug fucked they are
crystalwhisker: You don't love me enough to keep your promises.
crystalwhisker: I want you to send those too, if you have them.
crystalwhisker: And if you weren't already.
xfrostdevil: what promises?
crystalwhisker: ...The ones you wrote for me.
crystalwhisker: Along with my poetry.
xfrostdevil: Let me find them
xfrostdevil: Ill send them asap Grace... But yes i do love Avalon too.
crystalwhisker: How long.
xfrostdevil: But the reason i am doing this to you, is because i know that im going to have to do it to Avalon too.
crystalwhisker: Why.
xfrostdevil: I dont deserve anyone.
xfrostdevil: I dont deserve my own life, when im straight and narrow, maybe i can think about it.
xfrostdevil: But Grace, please, i want you to find a kind, giving loving man in your own country
xfrostdevil: Someone who loves you for you, someone to have a family with, someone who will pick you up when your down.
crystalwhisker: Yeah, Allen.
crystalwhisker: That used to be you and Kagan.
crystalwhisker: Not anyfucking more.
xfrostdevil: Grace, well i cant do this to you anymore.
crystalwhisker: Do what to me?
xfrostdevil: Lie, be a cunt.
crystalwhisker: You already fucking destroyed me.
crystalwhisker: You can't hurt me anymore.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: I'm a terrible dancer... I look like I have down's syndrome. >_<
tigerxchaos: You just gots to feel the beat. And let yourself move, and not worry about what other people think of you.
tigerxchaos: Because they're all out there making fools of themselves too. :P
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: I guess so.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: I'm great at hardcore dancing.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: lol
tigerxchaos: Hardcore what?
tigerxchaos: 0:)
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: Then I pass out and I'm not good at it anymore.
tigerxchaos: Unconscious bodies cannot feel the beat.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: OH MY GOD LOL GOING ON MY TUMBLR
Hey Lyndsey.
It’s not harassment if you don’t tell the harasser to stop talking to you. Love ya, babe. :]
I gave up everything.
I gave up everything I used to know so I could be happy. I gave up most of my friends, I gave up the place I used to also call home, I gave up someone that made me terribly unhappy for a better life. I wanted to give all of this up because I wanted a better life for myself, one where I would never be alone ever again… Yet I now feel more alone than I ever have been my whole life.
The funny...
January 2010
27 posts
“I love you more then I value my life, and at the minute, I value my life because you’re in it.”
Australian Body Pillows.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: "Sure, Frost. Let's do this shit."
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: *clings to* I need a new body pillow.
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: Mine's gone flat. :<
Allen Butt: you know you can buy pretty good ones from australia
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: really?
Allen Butt: theres a pretty good brand name, Butt
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: HAHAHAHAHA
Allen Butt: thier best model is Allen
Grace Kathryn Casagrande: I HAVE TO HAVE ONE
“You may cry a lot, but my world revolves around you, so I guess it rains a lot… I love the rain.”
“It’s the kind of music you listen to when you’re driving in the dark, when no...”
– Me, explaining She Wants Revenge (via petrifiedelectrified)
Your the most beautiful girl to me in the world, and i think you have an amazing personality i love you and i want to see you in real life as soon as possible
I want to cry.
cody_flores1990: hey
crystalwhisker: WAZZUP NIGGA
cody_flores1990: I just got home, bruh
crystalwhisker: Not bad, boiiii.
crystalwhisker: So what's up?
cody_flores1990: Not much. I'm shipping out to Basic Training on April 26th
crystalwhisker: WHAT
cody_flores1990: Yep
crystalwhisker: GOD DAMN IT CODY
cody_flores1990: What?
crystalwhisker: EVERYONES GOING TO THE ARMY WTF
cody_flores1990: It definately seems like that.
Nicknames.
Wally: Sorry poopy, I lost connection
crystalwhisker: It's ok.
Wally: So, nicknames.
crystalwhisker: pumpkin.
crystalwhisker: PUNKIN
crystalwhisker: PUNKIN PIEEEEE
Wally: Noooo.
I have my own rescue team. Do you? ~KDRT~
Why yes. Yes it did.
petrifiedelectrified:
Fuck yeah, being epileptic just got 100x cooler.
Steph: Hehy
Steph: Sorry I didn't respond until just now... I've been speaking with my friend's parents..
crystalwhisker: Cool I guess.
Steph: Yeah.. my friend commited suicide yesterday and I've been talking with her parents...
Steph: I hurt so many people last night...
crystalwhisker: wow. good thing i didnt. two people in one night's bad.
Steph: I hurt so many people that night...
Steph: I'm hurting so bad right now...
Steph: I hurt you.. I hurt my friend...
Steph: I'm a fucking idiot..
crystalwhisker: how old of a friend was this?
Steph: I've known her since...
Steph: 8th grade?
crystalwhisker: wow.
Steph: maybe a little bit before... all I remember was her picking me up off the ground when I got a brick to my head.
crystalwhisker: ouch.
Steph: I'm a fucking idiot...
crystalwhisker: Who's the one you slept with? not her I hope.
Steph: .. Her.
crystalwhisker: Why'd she kill herself, then?
Steph: She called me the morning after asking if we could be more than friends... and I said "No" and she was like "Then what happened last night?" and I said "I honestly don't know. If I recall you were high, too."
Steph: So...
Steph: I broke her heart when times were tough...
Steph: and I'm a fucking idiot and I"ll never forgive myself..
Steph: I'm a fucking idiot...
crystalwhisker: Why did you tell her no?
Steph: Because I told her that it's better off that we remain friends...
Steph: Why did i have sex with her? I don't fucking know...
crystalwhisker: So... She killed herself after you told her no? I think that there might have been more to it than that.
Steph: But that's all i know..
Steph: I've never expected this from her, ever...
Steph: She never gave me any signs...
Steph: She never threatened...
Steph: I've always listened to her and she was always the one smacking sense into me...
crystalwhisker: Usually the people who never threaten are the ones who are going to really do it.
Steph: Yeah..
crystalwhisker: How'd she do it?
Steph: OD.
crystalwhisker: On...?
Steph: Not sure yet, not till toxicology comes back in a couple of weeks..
Steph: They found a lot of pills in her system..
Steph: and she's jaundiced...
Steph: So they think it's Tylenol.
crystalwhisker: That sounds about right.
crystalwhisker: Alcohol?
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Steph: I'm so sick of suicide. I'm fucking sick of it.
Steph: But it happens..
crystalwhisker: It sucks, but if she didn't give any signs and she actually did it, then maybe she deserves to be in a better place.
crystalwhisker: I hope for her sake that there isn't a heaven or hell.
crystalwhisker: ...Or that god is more lenient towards suicide than we're led to believe.
Steph: I believe in reincarnation than anything else.
Steph: and those who commit suicide are souls that want to start over or... They've really given up.
crystalwhisker: From the sounds of things, it would appear that she'd given up.
crystalwhisker: It probably wasn't your fault.
crystalwhisker: Even if you were the last straw, people don't kill themselves over one rejection. So don't beat yourself up.
Steph: It's just really hard to not beat myself up right now...
crystalwhisker: I can understand that.
Steph: I'm so sorry for that night... I'm so god damned sorry...
crystalwhisker: It's fine.
Meebo Message: Could not IM buddy
Steph: I'm so motherfucking sorry and it hurts so bad that I can't take it back...
crystalwhisker: I'll get over. I'm really good at turning off emotion.
Steph: You shouldn't, though... You should embrace them..
crystalwhisker: If I did that, I'd overflow.
Steph: Yet I have some sort of Taoist view on life so, I'm crazy.
crystalwhisker: Not crazy. Steph.
crystalwhisker: Get used to it I guess. It's who you are.
One 18.25 ounce package chocolate cake mix,
one can prepared coconut pecan frosting, 3/4 cup vegetable oil, 4 large eggs, one cup semisweet chocolate chips, 3/4 cup butter or margarine, 1 and 2/3 cups granulated sugar, 2 cups all purpose flour, don’t forget garnishes, such as fish shaped crackers, fish shaped candies, fish shaped solid waste, fish shaped dirt, fish shaped ethylbenzene, pull-and-peel licorice, fish shaped volatile...
